Author of Multiple – Nancy DeLaval Miller

Since I was a child I have felt inferior to other people and I often was left out of gatherings and social affairs. I now know that the cause of this inferiority was sexual abuse by a maid when I was 3 – 4 years old. Many psychologists believe that our personality is not completely formed at this age and normal people continue to mold themselves into who they are going to be as adults.  Children who are abused and lose their sense of self, form alternate personalities to survive in society. Some children are so brutally abused as children that they never complete themselves and are reminded constantly that they are the “horrible person” their parents said they were. These people carry tremendous anger within themselves and often don’t find their way.

I was fortunate to have kind parents who never told me I would not amount to anything. However, my mother couldn’t understand me and distanced herself. In addition to feeling bad about myself because of the abuse, I was not given enough confidence to believe I would be a success in life. I was rebellious and chose to live an alternate lifestyle, using drugs and casual sex as a way to prove I could stand on my own. That life only proved I was crazy.

My salvation came when I accepted Jesus. I know there are many people who do not want to accept this as a viable lifestyle, but it was perfect for me. I was never able to live a “normal” life, but somehow I managed to interact with the people around me. Many people told me I should write my memoir because I have done so many crazy things, but nobody knew about my psychological disorder. It was not until I began therapy at 50 years old that I realized there were other “people” inside me.

I hope you will be curious enough to read MULTIPLE: A Christian’s Battle with Insanity.

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